Today, I took a walk…
It’s down Cayco Street. Without glancing at that exact place where it all started I was pacing fast, almost running. The nuisance utility posts standing the crowded streets were giant trees in a forest. People walking past were heavy shrubs with thorns. I almost fell down from tripping into an extruded manhole that seemed to my trap. But I was spared. If that happens, I’ll be forever stacked in darkness. In some shrouded state of mind, I was lost again. This was the second time I was hiding from my emotional stunt in that place. I won’t go there again. I still don’t know if I’m shelving everything as part of history. I’m still lost. Weak and unable to let go, I’m still keeping all the colored memories. Though in some ridiculous idea, I’ll put a concrete marker in that area that’ll read: THIS IS WHERE I FOUND MY BLESSING.
Returning home, I put on my music player to my ears to set a different feel. I haven’t changed my play list for a week now. I almost do it everyday – from heavy rock to glum classical – to set different moods for each predictable day. The songs contained songs from Willie Nelson, Faith Hill, Jack Johnson, Garth Brooks, and Keith Urban – all country tunes but not a song from Shawn Colvin. Argh, five years ago, I was happy when I heard it. That sappy moment in the car, I can hear different lyrics.
Today I took a walk up the street
I picked my hanky that dropped
Damped with some tears
And secret thoughts were said aloud
I watched your face in the clouds
Until the clouds had blown away
And were we ever somewhere else
Who knows, it’s hard to say
But I never saw blue like that before
Across the sky
Around the world
And you’ve given me all you have and more
And no one else has ever shown me how
To see the world the way I see it now
Oh, I, I never saw blue like that
I can’t believe a week ago I was alone,
I didn’t think of you
I hadn’t seen you or heard you’re name
But even now,
I’m so amazed
It’s like a dream,
It’s like a rainbow,
It’s like the rain.
And some things are the way they are
And words just can’t explain
But I never saw blue like that before
Across the sky
Around the world
And you’ve given me all you have and more
No one else has ever shown me how
To see the world the way I see it now
Oh, I, I never saw blue like that
And it feels like now,
And it feels always,
And it feels like coming home
But, I never saw blue like that before…
